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Mr. McDreamy…Dreaming along!

You are all I need , to be free.

You are my life time guarantee.

Coz i know i think of you when i am down and feelin blue

You know the days go by, they never end

It’s like they never end until tomorrow

Coz you are my lifetime guarantee

You are all I need, to be free.

Meredith sees him in the corridor of hospital , exhales a sigh which meant ‘shit I want him so badly’, feels helpless and calls him Mr. McDreamy

A grey eyed guy with crop beard , little sad face, average-ish physique , stands-out in 50 people , intelligent, humorous, lightening gaze which looks within and walks like a college guy who has no worry whatsoever. That’s Mr. McDreamy (Patrick Dempsey ) from Grey’s Anatomy.

Now you might think whats so special about him that he landed up as a topic of the blog? Well Nothing and Everything. He is perfectly imperfect. Just the way I like it.

He would wear this Orange Tee and sit at the bar enjoying his drink alone. Not talking much just thinking to himself. And a girl comes n sits beside him. He looks at her, and finds her cute says “wow she has a nice smile”. Starts talking, about the weather and work and falls for her. Eventually she falls in his arms perfectly.

That’s all how it started and went on..

Patrick-DempseyAfter a long thought,I realized I like the idea of him from the core.

A soft spoken guy making the first move, making you feel the pain in your guts because of the way he treats you, who talks endlessly about past future work dreams friends family just anything, includes you in his life in a moment, a guy who doesn’t think too much of the consequences, who takes a step first just realizing the connection two people share, who is not bound by stupid conversations of society, morality, who accepts you the way you are, who cares for your family the way you do, who puts himself second when you are around, who gets angry very quickly because he cant stand the mediocrity, who guides you in your work, who compels you to go forward and try new things, who kicks you in your butt if you dont perform, who teaches you things which you need support in, who takes you as a partner, listens to your suggestions, shares his worries and problems with you, who takes your support whenever necessary, who fulfills his responsibilities well, who doesnt just doesnt let you pay 😉 who takes you as his property at the same time gives you your space, who doesnt expect too much, who cant see you with any other guy, who doesn’t like public display of affection, who would go any heights to help you in trouble, who touches you and fills you up with love and care, whose intimacy is not bound by physical attraction but by the commitment, sometimes you will find him extremely cold hearted, sometimes you will find him stubborn and extremely egoistic, but when you think straight you will understand he is just keeping it real, a guy who will fight with you, make you angry deeply, who will neglect you, who will not talk to you for days , not say I love you for days together but will not move from his commitment an inch, who makes you fall for him everyday some more, beside him you feel complete… You feel completely loved.

Patrick-Dempsey-Male-Celebrity-WallpaperMr. McDreamy is like a sunshine who would brighten up your life and a moonlight who would fill your life with stars and romance. This is one character on TV which i lose my sleep and hunger over. I clearly know this craziness is completely crazy but seriously there is no control over some things in life or rather you dont want to have control over some things in life.

Every-time I watched him on screen, I would melt down with the idea of having a guy like that in life..but never found a face matching that character.

Until I found HIM. I just did. Like from no where, he just landed in front of me. Call it a Destiny, call it a Coincidence, call it a Serendipity. I just found him.

Its been some time, I hope he still remembers that he is still my “Mr. McDreamy”..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Valentines Day..Uff not again!

Seriously, who created this day! The much I thank god for creating Birthdays , is the much I hate whoever created Valentines day!

Its been many years I have been In love, experienced many forms of love and shared lovely relationships..But boy this day is definitely over-hyped than any other celebrations..

I always face a profound battle between my girly expectations and practical thinking.

To clarify it more .. I badly expect my lover to plan for everything and making me feel like princess, getting roses and chocolate cake and a gift and telling me how much he loves me, how much he wants me in his life and trust me the list has few more pointers… 😉

CelebrateValentines_DayChocolate_freecomputerdesktopwallpaper_2560But at the same time I think, what bullshit is this? its a normal everyday sort of day. I already know he loves me, he says that everyday, I already know how much he wants me in his life, he doesn’t need to get roses, gifts and plan a lavish evening to tell me that, he already takes care of me so well; I don’t need to be felt like princess just for one day.. and it goes on..

But I know myself very well.. No matter how practically I think, I would still expect him to meet me, make plans with me and make the evening special..

After experiencing the same dilemma every year, facing good & bad valentines day, overwhelming happiness & utter disappointments and realization, I believe its time to really dig into this.

Expectations and disappointments are not new to anyone. But why expect so much on this bloody valentine’s day! I did some so called thinking.. I think there is something beyond feeling special that you expect that day. We live in a very volatile & unsteady world which is a huge hiccup in our romantic relationships. Catching-up, roaming around, sharing with each other, having someone around when you need, doing what you like together etc. all of this has become very rare. You really have to try and take efforts to be with each other to spend some quality time. And everything you do comes with a expiry duration tag.

I think on that ONE day, you want that piece of your quality time, feel of early days of relationship , freedom from worries of work & money and just some rosy time with your loved one. Its probably the Rightful day that has gotten created, for the two people to get along and speak about them , their future, their plans and their relationship. Its one day , when the two people hold hands and plan what happens next with them.

Its Sweet, Pure , Genuine and Romantic!

But one should never wait for other person to plan. Initiating to make the evening special is not over-hyped at all, its nice and might not lead to disappointments. Expectations are good but waiting for someone to take an action  and letting it lead to disappointment & fight is definitely not good for any relationship.

So this valentines day I have decided to Expect with my full heart and plan.. Whatever happens, I already know he loves me.. ;););)

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Emotional dependency..it does take away my sleep!

Dependency, how much role does this play in our daily life? I would say a lot actually !

They divide the aspects of dependency into being dependent, independent or interdependent. Being dependent on someone is someone else pulling the strings for you. Being independent is what everyone strives to achieve! In this case, your happiness, success, decisions, consequences and more importantly your sorrows are not dependent on a person or a situation. And being interdependent, that’s how it is everyday. Entangled into many people. May it be your family, lover, friends, colleagues, boss or any damn thing. We all can’t move ahead unless we have a YES from someone. There is always at least one person on whom your things are dependent.

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If you give it a thought, its always gonna be like that! Talk about workplace or home its never gonna change. And probably that’s how we want it to stay. We just don’t realize it that way..

If we are independent of everyone around us then practically we will be all alone. Living life on your own terms without caring about another person’s priorities, work, needs or time, that is a tempting deal but doesn’t come without extreme consequences.

But then why there comes a time in our life when we want to give it a damn, we want to be the way we want. We see ourselves stuck into questions like, “Why the hell I cant just do what I want? Why cant I just be where I want to be? Why the heck I cant choose whom to be with? “. And these questions never give you an answer in return! Then it leads to all kinds of reactions like breakdown, crying, depression, anger, shutting yourself or simply walking away.

I believe “our emotional attachment to a person, decision, result or the consequences leads us into a trap of disappoint and unsatisfaction”. and it turn we loose out on everything.

When you feel that disappointment, don’t react. Wait for a second and think. What do you exactly want?

Take a minute to think. Analyze the situation.

Many situations are much more complex and include dozens of people and varied emotions. But what if we start making an effort to make things hassle free and less messier than they usually get.

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In the end, we are always going to be interdependent but how we turn the disadvantage into advantage will decide the day !!!

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Wants…they trick us into going on!!

What do i want? What is it that i really want?

Every time i ask this question to myself, i get a different answer. The voice inside my mind says…

I wanna be free, i wanna travel the world alone and live the way i want, i wanna be successful like others, i wanna take revenge on that one person,  i wanna fulfill every dream of my father, i wanna help others, i wanna be selfless and just devote myself to some great work, i wanna turn back time and be in that moment again, i wanna break-free and re-do everything, i wanna earn loads of money, i wanna marry that one person, i wanna be reckless, i want a shoulder to cry on, i wanna be a writer, i wanna be something different than others, i wanna show the world how much i love him, i wanna cross all limits n show him how much i love him, i wanna break all rules n be on top of my world, i want family, i wanna have my everyday different, i wanna learn dancing, i wanna be beautiful, i wanna take decisions based on what i feel, i wanna be inspiration to others, i wanna set an example, i wanna be careless about future, i wanna do everything in the world to make him happy and i want my death-life decision in my hands….

Oh bugger, i bet the list can go on and on. there is no end to this. Its like I can feel there is one more person inside my head who speaks, thinks, argues, comments and complaints every bloody moment. I wish so many times; what if i wish i had not wanted anything, what if i had been a person with minimum expectations from life, others and myself. then probably this war happening inside would have rested for a moment.

But i guess that’s not gonna happen. I’m gonna keep wanting. I’m gonna keep trying for it. I’m gonna keep getting disappointed. I’m gonna keep failing and succeeding and then again some days down the line i will be sipping a cup of coffee, thinking about myself and feeling screwed up while trying to figure whats happening; i will take a pen and start writing about what i feel. and then it goes on..