5 things my BF’s must have hated in me…

Oh Yes !! Those of you who have been In and Out of Love, very well know how much of our lives have been impacted because of our relationships…Thankfully its true for Guys and girls πŸ˜‰

One thing I’m dead sure, that guys who I have been close to Loved me with all their heart. At some point, they loved me more than anything else in life. But there also came a time, when they hated me from the core πŸ˜›

1. I Over-Share.. Well yes, I agree I do!

I want to share about the good movie I watched, excellent book that I read, romantic restaurant I went to or a blessed vacation I went to. Who likes a girl for long who talks too much or who wants you to share everything πŸ˜‰

On top that, I hate to keep secrets. So I can imagine the frustration guys must have gone through because no one would like their good or bads to be published on the blog or spoken out in friends. Love is such an important thing in my life that at times, I just cant control but share with the world what you are or who you are to me.

Isn’t blogging one of the results of over-sharing πŸ˜›

2. I Over-Give in the relationship.. Heard of anyone who gives 110% in the relationship? πŸ˜‰

I don’t get tired or bored of a person. I certainly can’t be mad for more than few hours( it was minutes once) So no matter what happens, If I am in love… I am always caring about you, your family, your health, your work, your aspirations and all your needs. I like to know everything and be an integral part of your life. I have no regrets in compromising my own plans if its going to give him happiness. I care more than imagined or expected.

Guys need so called space all the time ;-0, and I certainly suck at giving that!

3. I don’t like change.. If the one I love starts behaving differently its utterly difficult for me to cope!

I wait for that I love you message, casual conversation about the day, plans to meet next time or need the feeling connected always. If that doesn’t happen, it makes me restless. I expect a guy to put his commitment towards the relation first, even when we have had steaming fights πŸ˜‰ Which guy on earth will do this πŸ˜‰

Guys don’t like to be so emotionally connected everyday, they like to be there when they feel like it. Freaking Unbalanced scenario.

4. I am emotionally dependent.. I hate this one too!

My happiness, sadness or peace of mind depends on the partner. A fight or misunderstanding affects me like you cant imagine. I sulk, I am disoriented, I get into depression or just fall ill. It definitely might be scaring the hell out of a guy to cope up with a girl like this. I am just so used to that person being around in all good or bad moments that I loose the sight of tomorrow, if even the thought of he not being there approaches me.

They say, a girl is only a sweet friend till she is independent and not emotional !

5. You are my fairytale.. Lol.. my partners have criticized me most for this!

If we are in love, going strong then you are as good as that absolutely stunning character in a romantic novel or Jerry in PS I love you! I will gift you , I will surprise you, I will make romantic plans, I would treat our togetherness as the most important thing, I will go to any limits to support you or I will do just anything to make you happy. For me constraints of Money, Time, People or Engagements matter very less because all along you are my first priority. Most of the guys don’t treat their relation as priority..

Naturally the pressure of keeping up with my all time enthusiastic soul must be difficult πŸ˜‰

With all said and done, my relationships have always ROCKED like hell πŸ˜‰ With no pretense, no manipulation..only naturally flowing emotions from both (love or hate) they are PURE!!

Everyone who has been close to me deserve to be awarded for keeping up with me at some point and still loving me incredibly πŸ™‚







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Valentines Day..Uff not again!

Seriously, who created this day! The much I thank god for creating Birthdays , is the much I hate whoever created Valentines day!

Its been many years I have been In love, experienced many forms of love and shared lovely relationships..But boy this day is definitely over-hyped than any other celebrations..

I always face a profound battle between my girly expectations and practical thinking.

To clarify it more .. I badly expect my lover to plan for everything and making me feel like princess, getting roses and chocolate cake and a gift and telling me how much he loves me, how much he wants me in his life and trust me the list has few more pointers… πŸ˜‰

CelebrateValentines_DayChocolate_freecomputerdesktopwallpaper_2560But at the same time I think, what bullshit is this? its a normal everyday sort of day. I already know he loves me, he says that everyday, I already know how much he wants me in his life, he doesn’t need to get roses, gifts and plan a lavish evening to tell me that, he already takes care of me so well; I don’t need to be felt like princess just for one day.. and it goes on..

But I know myself very well.. No matter how practically I think, I would still expect him to meet me, make plans with me and make the evening special..

After experiencing the same dilemma every year, facing good & bad valentines day, overwhelming happiness & utter disappointments and realization, I believe its time to really dig into this.

Expectations and disappointments are not new to anyone. But why expect so much on this bloody valentine’s day! I did some so called thinking.. I think there is something beyond feeling special that you expect that day. We live in a very volatile & unsteady world which is a huge hiccup in our romantic relationships. Catching-up, roaming around, sharing with each other, having someone around when you need, doing what you like together etc. all of this has become very rare. You really have to try and take efforts to be with each other to spend some quality time. And everything you do comes with a expiry duration tag.

I think on that ONE day, you want that piece of your quality time, feel of early days of relationship , freedom from worries of work & money and just some rosy time with your loved one. Its probably the Rightful day that has gotten created, for the two people to get along and speak about them , their future, their plans and their relationship. Its one day , when the two people hold hands and plan what happens next with them.

Its Sweet, Pure , Genuine and Romantic!

But one should never wait for other person to plan. Initiating to make the evening special is not over-hyped at all, its nice and might not lead to disappointments. Expectations are good but waiting for someone to take an actionΒ  and letting it lead to disappointment & fight is definitely not good for any relationship.

So this valentines day I have decided to Expect with my full heart and plan.. Whatever happens, I already know he loves me.. ;););)

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Wohhoo! its feels great to be back here..

Somewhere in last few months, i reduced writing! I was thinking why that happened..

I just realized I write when I’m emotionally composed. I cherish writing as a hobby it comes to me naturally.When relationships, friendships, work, feeling of being contented and career growth are going well (hand-in-hand) then I’m composed. Or else I behave like a disoriented child who doesn’t have a clue of whats happening around πŸ˜‰

So that suggests that now I’m sort of living the best time of life..

Seriously what else one needs in life.. A loving & understanding husband, an always there kind of best-friend, few good friends , gradual career growth, getting to work on new things , getting to learn new things, earning enough (but not enough) and most importantly rock solid support & love by family!

ShakkkyyyΒ  -> More Shakkkyyy -> Getting Better -> Stabilizing ————-> Stable

Last 3-4 years, I realize now how its shaped. I’m still at Stabilizing mode, but hope to cross that phase soon.

So I’m going to write more.. More about my experiences, my friends, my work experiences and relationships.. Yesterday a friend of mine insisted that I should not stop writing and here I am thanks to her !

Yo 2014!